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How can I, after being home for only a week, change to this new way of living? This life of continual surrender to God in every aspect of life and also of humbleness to live with Him without all of the spoilings and riches that this world offers. How can I simply desire Him and let Him satisfy me completely?
How can I keep myself from slipping into the old routine and way of life? God has challenged me to a new way of life and that is what I want to do, what I want to be. My sister Kristen once said, "If you keep doing what you have always done, you will be what you have always been." If I keep saying the things that I have always said, if I keep thinking the things that I have always thought, If I keep getting defeated by the same lies, I will stay the same. But, sometimes that is the easy road. It is way easier to stay in step with the world, to do what they do, to say what they say then to stop and go it "alone" without any other human to go along. Because, ultimately, it is God who I desire to please and not man and He is the one that I must follow.
If I want to be different, I need to constantly keep renewing my mind. The remind myself of who I want to be and what I must do to get there.
One day, I was talking with Ioana (one of the tranlators) as we walked the 20 minute walk to church. We were talking about travelling and she said, "I do not want to go to America. I do not want to live somewhere where I have everything that I need."
I thought about it, and I realized that it is so easy to get and get and get. As far as having my needs met, I rarely lack anything. One of the things that God has challenged me of from this trip is that of being satisfied with Him only. In the end it is not going to matter what kind of car I drove and how nice it was, it will matter if I used that car well, or if I was selfish and wanted it to please me. It will not matter what kind of clothes I wore and how stylish I was, it will matter if I let those things become more important to me than the people that God placed around me for me to minister to.
"...For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also." God has challenged me to let go of the material things and to trust Him. He will supply what I need. And the things that I don't need, well, I can survive without them.